Saturday, March 10, 2007
in sch waiting for time to pass...
time usually passes very fast when i have break in sch. cos i will spend the time either crapping with frens or surfing the net in the lib.
but today when after i finish surfing all e websites tt i usually visit, there's still so much time left.
maybe its because im alone...
really hate being alone in sch. everything seems so dull without frens around.
kx volunteer to accompany me if i go sit in her class. but i didnt go. pple are listening to class attentively i cant be talking to her rite? haiz.
i went for my morning lect alone too. but fortunately a former tech comm project mate accompany me thru the first lect. even tho im not really close to her, i still feel good sitting next to someone i know.
i tink i really need to grow up. nobody will believe a 20+ years old person cannot attend lect alone. even i tink its ridiculous. but somehow i yearn for a familiar face to be with me all the time.
i tink i will suffer when i start work in a few years time. working colleagues are not frens. they are just colleagues. u cant open up to them and pour out all your woes. u have to pretend that you're happy and smile even tho u feel like slapping pple.
once i complain to an ex-colleague abt the stupid working hours of my previous company and she told me i have a bad working attitude. i feel so pissed off by that. working everyday till 8 or 9pm means good working attitude meh? WTH lar. i believe a efficient worker will plan her time and finish her work so tt she can leave the office everyday on time. of course, i wont be unhappy abt the occasional OT tt i have to fulfill cos i understand its work afterall. but EVERYDAY 9pm is madness!
anyway, after tt i didnt feel as close to tt colleague anymore. she used to be the person i'm more close to at tt company.
Also, sy told me abt this classmate of hers tt she's working with in her sch project. lets juz name her A for simplicity. A once complain tt sy does her part of the project too slowly tt she cause the whole grp to be behind schedule. fact is tt A DID NOT tell sy e changes tt she make in the project and since both their parts are related, 1 change means everything muz change. sy oni knows abt the change when they meet for discussion and thus have to redo her part. and A is not happy abt tt.
then sy told me A had worked before coming to uni and thus must have been influenced by it. are working pple really tt bad? they seems to oni tink abt themselves and are VERY pretenious.
pardon me for my pointless ranting. anyway wat i wan to say is tt i need to grow up so tt i dun feel sad when im alone. cos there may be times where i have no one close near me.
i feel really grateful for all the nice friends tt i have. there's no complaining, no quarelling and sorts in all my cliques. (is e spelling correct? lol) we all enjoy each other company and i especially love outing time where we would crap abt anything under the sun. we can criticise each other openly cos everyone will understand tt its a joke and will not take it to heart. i wan to be ur fren forever! dun u tink u can cast me aside.. haha. i'll stick with u till e end.. who ask u to be such a GREAT FREN? :D
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6:27 AM
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